Chapter 31: Break it Down (Part 5) - My K-Pop Experience

Disclaimer:

If you have a "cringe-allergy" or/and a "I love XXX so much. They are the most beautiful people this earth has ever birthed" syndrome, then please skip that part.

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C. Source of Inspiration for Personal use and/or commercial use combined with point below

D. Gaslighting, silence treatment, taking advantage of “low self-esteem syndrome”

You can find below some extracts of the messages I sent/replied to "that" person between 2018-2019.

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“What’s your blood type?”

I have NEVER been asked that question when getting to know someone...I thought: “Maybe that person has a rare blood type and seeks to build a register in case anything happens” ...uh?

I also remembered that in some countries of Asia, it is a common question to ask.

I think the latter one made more sense.

“How do you forgive?”

The question caught me off guard.

I had never thought about that. So, I went online, watched a few sermons and compiled some bible verses together. In the end, I sent a very long essay. Later on, it was interesting to see “that person” adding some personnel of their company to their “Thank You” list when receiving some awards.

“What’s your favourite Christmas carol?”

To which I replied:

“I mostly listen to hymns, instrumental (favourite is sleep away by Bob Acri), and a few Christian contemporary music. My favourite Christmas carols oh…Silent night/Oh holy night/Mary did you know…. [...]"_ I don't think "Mary did you know" was appealing enough to appear on a end of year show...

When talking about some habits I developed after talking to “that person” (e.g., Using lots of emojis):

“So, in that case, I got infected by your strange side then…. where’s the medicine? :P [...] Please find the remedy quickly, [...]”...At least their fans were inspired by their songs...

When talking about going to London in 2019:

“With a placard, on the top of my head, *Searching for my positive friend* :P”

Interesting...

When talking about an actress who was introduced to Jesus by a pastor but refused (I think it was Marylin Monroe, not sure):

“This story is familiar…I’ll have to look into it. God will never force anybody to follow Him…He can send a thousand people to you but in the end, the choice is yours. In her case, it could be that she believed he was telling the truth but that it was just not applicable in her own life?...that stepping down from her podium was just too much for her?...or believed that it was just the way things were supposed to be and that the place she was in, although surrounded by darkness and sorrow, would become her home?.... I really don’t know but it is really sad to see and hear how someone’s mindset can change because of abuse….”” ...At least their fans were inspired by their songs pt2...

Referring to something “that person” said:

“Do you think that all the expressions you’ve been saying are things you could have said a year ago? [...] XXX has grown a lot and is growing beautifully” I wonder what kind of flowers and fruits you’ll produce?” ...At least their fans were inspired by their songs pt3...That's all I can say at this point...

About breaking ties with KPOP:

“So hey teacher, how have you cut/break the ties then? Taking advice from others can be good isn’t? So I can make sure I am ticking the boxes correctly”...At least their fans were inspired by their songs pt4...

Joking around about a shopping list with food that person would have to buy...bruh.

“I’ll make sure the list pierces through the ground to meet the other surface of the earth :P”

Is it not a waste though? Printing so many messages for what or who? It’s 2023 now, has the company stopped the machine or is it still printing?

About people's value:

“Sadly yeah, it can be so easy to compare ourselves to others especially when things didn’t go as planned…Everybody does that…Without realising we can be dimming our own light to let someone else’s shine, thinking that they are in a better position than ours but we are all like individual pieces of a jigsaw…each of us with our own colours (personality), stories (experience) and competence (gifts, skills, etc) …we are in a way completing one another. Life’s weird but we’re all in this together XD”...At least their fans were inspired by their songs pt5...

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“You are confused”.

“You don’t know what you are talking about”

*silence*

“It is your fault if you misunderstood”.

Just a few of the replies I received when my questions were asking for more than “surface-level” replies.

I may update this page later on if I wish to add more.

The amount of cringe suffices for today...

The great illusion, My KPOP Experience, Not a Fanfic

~ My K-Pop Experience: How My Experience Shaped My Personal Journey as a Christian (#31.5) ~