Chapter 20: Confession - My K-Pop Experience

After five days of laughing on my own because of where I had been, I decided to let my fellow forum members what I had done.

Here’s what I posted on the forum:

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~CONFESSION TIME~

(You can also call it 'Things that Jimijymy did that were not really that smart Part 2'

I went to London where they had their concerts..................................yep

For the past weeks (if not months), the thought of talking to some armys face to face wouldn't leave my mind even after listening to some advice from some family members and some of you. With all what has been discussed for about nearly a year, we've seen that what has happened to Jonghyun is being repeated again not only with BTS but also other young people everywhere and I don't think I'm not strong enough to just sit down and look at so many young people being struck down one by one.I kept praying, fasting and crying about it because I knew the negative impact (physically, mentally and spiritually) it could have not only on me but also on my family if I was to follow my own ideas and not God's plan and directions.

But as days passed by, I would hear things from relatives, read and listen to scriptures/devotionals/bible studies/sermons/music; that would confirm that it was something I was being led to do.

So, on the 10/10 (The Day 2 of their concert in London), I packed everything I needed and went out to take a train. I left around 6:30 a.m and arrived at the 02 Arena around 11:30 a.m.

Once there I panicked 'Oh Lord, what am I doing here??'...the place was full of people everywhere, dancing and singing. That was just not my comfort zone.

I thought I was going to faint. My only thought was to find the toilets.

Once in the toilet after being in the queue for 15 minutes, I just wanted to cry but then I started praying. 5 minutes later, I was walking around and standing where it was busy, giving notes to the fans (you can find it attached below).

The fans were really kind and polite. I would ask them 'Are you here for the concert?', they would reply by yes or no. After, I would show them the notes and explain what it was about, then they would happily take them and say 'thank you'.

After 1h30min, I had less than 40 papers remaining out of 400. At that moment I heard a loud voice, I turned my head it was two fans coming with two security agents.....

They told me that what I was saying were strong accusations that could be considered as slandering. They've also told me that they've met BTS and the crew and

they seemed to be really nice guys. They took the remaining papers I had and asked to take my bag to search it. As one of the agents was searching my bag, one of the fans that watched the video started talking to me (you could feel that she was angry, frustrated and about to burst into tears)

'Yes, it's true that you’ve said we should wait after the concert to watch the video. Yes, it's true that you’ve said that there are certain things that will not be appropriate to certain people. But, here, there are a lot of young people; you shouldn't give it to them. We are here to have a nice time and you are.....'Etc.

I was just listening to her, nodding and saying 'Yes, yes I understand'. Then, the other security agent asked me if I was part of any organisation

'No, I am a student', 'Are you here with other people *looking around*?', 'No, I'm alone'. He looked at me like 'Is she real?’ They then gave me back my bag and asked me to leave the place. I said 'Ok. Thank you very much. Bye.'

I was disappointed that I couldn't give all the papers but I realised that it was God's timing to tell me that 'You've done your part. It's time to leave'.

If I hadn't left at this precise moment I would have missed my train...

Once I got home I turned my computer on, to do bible studies with some relatives and my laptop was running so loud and slow...I was looking at it and thought

'Oh Lord, what have I just done again...' X)

A few days later, I watched their final speech during the Day2 concert and the interviews they've made in London.

As I was paying attention to the things they were saying and the way they were behaving, I wondered 'Could it be possible that the papers were not thrown in the bin but brought to the staff?' If they've seen the papers then they've probably watched the video, and if they've watched the video then,

I'm sorry, but now (if not before) they know about the threads...

Today, I'm still wondering if I've really been there or if it was just a dream caused by a possible expired food I might have ate the day before…

P.S: If you want to slaughter me in your comments, please, send it to me privately thank you very much <3

~~~~~~~~ End of the story ~~~~~~~~

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How I wish I did not include the P.S above.

A wolf in sheep clothing was coming to do just that: “slaughter”

Oh, had I known...

I was shaking a hand offering compassion, friendship, and love. But so blind, I could not see the face smiling back at me ready to steal, kill and destroy.

~ My K-Pop Experience: How My Experience Shaped My Personal Journey as a Christian (#20) ~